This is my new mantra: Daunting, but doable. When I feel that strange sense of heavy rising in my chest, swapping my air for panic, I take a breath and tell myself, “Yes, this is overwhelming and hard and you’ve got so much to learn to make it all happen BUT… it’s doable. You can do this.”
Daunting, but doable. Nothing wrong with that.
I can do this because, you know what, we always do this. All of us do hard things all the time. Things we don’t want to do. Things we don’t like to do. Things we are scared to do. All of us, we can do anything we really, really want to do. The trick is to know what we really, really want to do and why.
I freelanced for three years before I went back to a salary with Mumtastic, so I’ve previously proved to myself that I can do this. Back then, I landed a good, ongoing freelance gig with Kidspot straight out of the blocks and that was that – everything else was gravy. I know I needed something reliable and regular to boost me along because I’m a reliable and regular kind of gal. I’m not a showperson or a salesperson or a hustler. I can do lots of things, but not those things. I know I’m going to struggle with those things.
But hey, like I said, daunting, but doable.
Two other things that are really helping me right now:
- People are awesome – for every dick out there, there are 1287 really awesome people who not only boost you up but also catch you when necessary. I have had so many people reach out to me already to see if we can work together, all referred to me by friends – little angel friends who have saved me a ton of grief. Like during the awful aftermath of a disaster, I’m looking for the helpers. And I like them very much.
- It’s fun – making things up from scratch is pretty much my favourite thing ever. So I’m going to do that.
I’m supposed to be having the week off and yesterday I went and saw two movies in the middle of the day (my ultimate luxury), so I was right on track. Today I’ve got a sick kid home with me and I told myself I’d be doing lots of reading (I scored big at the library over the weekend), but I can’t settle.
Instead I cleaned up the backyard, folded the washing, baked a chocolate slice, had a good chat with my friend and told myself I would stay away from work at the computer. Then I redid my CV, registered the domain name and started creating a logo for my new parenting website (it’s going to be called www.mumlyfe.com.au) and now I’m here, writing to you.
Saying thank you. Thank you for reminding me that daunting is hardly the end. Daunting is doable.